Intensity

I went to church last night and the pastor brought up three other guys that had gone to Honduras with him two weeks ago on a mission trip. It was good and took me back to my Urbana trip. Then, at the end of the service Mike started talking about a guy who has passed away to cancer in the past few days that lead worship for the youth and just completely loved Jesus. One of the things that he said that I had actually thought about myself in the past few weeks was, “life is not measured by length, but intensity.” It made me think about how I live obviously, but more than anything it made me think about the goofy things I distract myself with.

How do I live my life in a way to express my love for Jesus most deeply? I often used to think about ministry or missions, but my addictions have been a huge hindrance in being able to serve. I am beginning to see how the low points I’ve been through are gradually being used more and more in regards to those around me. I’ve often hated things that were happening in my life; things that I’ve allowed or not. But, God has started showing me how He redeems those experiences. He’s redeemed them within me, but He’s also started redeeming them by allowing me to walk alongside guys struggling with the same things. I want to make myself available. I want to be used as a tool to glorify the Lord. Only He has the ability to take what He’s shaped me into and use it for good. Alone, I would screw it up. But, He’s placing people in my life that are in need of Him and don’t know what it is that they actually need from Him.

If I lived ten more years and ran the race as well as I possibly could would I say it was a waste just because I didn’t live 30 more years? I would if my perspective was wrong. But, I want my perspective to be right and want to live like my candle won’t burn forever. While I’m here I want to live a life that is diligent, consumed & deep!