Silence is Golden

I found myself reminiscing the other day about what it was like when I was a teenager and had no cellphone, no Facebook, no Twitter, no IM & only about 12 channels on television.  Believe me, I love my phone & really love Directv!  But I sometimes feel numb to it all.  I like knowing that I can keep up with people in ways that were never possible before.  As far as it maintaining real relationships, that’s all smoke & mirrors.  It’s nice to be in contact nonetheless.

My main difficulty is in being so sucked in.  We talk about being bombarded with media & advertising, but we are the ones that allow it.  I told Jo the other day that I was sick of looking at my phone through all of my favorite websites just to see if something has changed in the past 30 minutes.  What if it has?  What will it change in my life?  It’s a little of why I haven’t blogged quite as much.  I found myself looking to see how many people had looked.  How many care?  Will anyone comment?  If they do, will it be worthwhile??  Most things I say aren’t worthwhile.  There’s no difference.

To add to that, I’ve had very little to say lately.  I feel like the Lord has been growing parts of my life that don’t need any extra distractions.  So, I’ve been quiet and saving some things for myself.  Not everything is for everyone.  There are things that I could write on here in my best efforts to be “real” and they would honestly just tweak most people and make me look like a freak in their eyes.  I look at some of the things that Rainn Wilson (Dwight from The Office) writes on Twitter and think, “why would you write or say some of those things??”  Some things should just be left alone.  Even if it’s remotely funny, just leave it be.

So, quiet has been a staple lately & it’s refreshing.  Just listening to worship music, reading, writing in my journal, & listening to sermons.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m still checking my sites, but I want to replace some things.  Bit by bit.  My life is too short to be worried about someone I don’t know all that well eating toast for breakfast or driving in the rain.  My life is mundane enough as it is.  I don’t need to take on someone else’s monotony too.  I like reading blogs that really dig deep, but I’m feeling exhausted with one sentence, compartmentalized glimpses into people’s lives.

Sorry, just rambling….